Finally! It’s been months since I’ve posted anything on the blog, and I’ve waited weeks and weeks to share the news with everyone, but I am officially 14 weeks pregnant! Jacob and I are expecting our little one in early May 2018.
I found out I was pregnant right around 6.5 weeks, so I’ve known now for about 2 months. Do you know how hard it is to not tell everyone you’re pregnant? I really just wanted to tell strangers I’d pass at the store because well, they didn’t know me, and it was so hard to keep it a secret. Of course, if you do know me in real life, you know I didn’t actually tell any strangers, but I really wanted to!
How I actually found out I was pregnant: On Labor Day, I felt absolutely terrible. I was super nauseous and so tired, and I really worried that I might have diabetes, which is one of my biggest fears (I enjoy sweets too much). Two days later, I decided to take a pregnancy test. I really didn’t think I was pregnant, but I had almost every early pregnancy symptom, so I was a little worried. I took the first test, and I never could get the result to come up, so I tried it again. Same thing happened! I guess the box was defective, but neither test worked. So I got another one and decided to take it on September 10th. I didn’t even tell Jacob I was going to take it because I really didn’t think I was pregnant. Literally after waiting 3 seconds, two lines showed up, which meant I was pregnant. There was no waiting 3 minutes for me for my result to show up. It was there in 3 seconds!! I’m not even kidding. It was that fast.
ANYWAYS. I. WAS. SCARED. I stood at the bedroom door for probably a full minute or two, which if you’ve never worked in television, it’s actually quite a long time. I never thought a minute was long before, but after working there for years, sometimes a minute can feel like 10 minutes to others who aren’t in the tv business.
Finally, I opened the door and showed Jacob the test, and that’s that! He was pretty much blindsided, but I think he took the news pretty well considering I was a mess. We ended up telling my mom at nine that night because I didn’t know what I needed to do next, and I was super scared. My mom screamed and was so excited, but Jacob and I were in shock and in a daze when we told her. I’m sure she’ll remember the look on our faces forever. The following day, I had a blood test to confirm it, and it was positive!
This sweet baby is a complete surprise to us, but we are absolutely thrilled with the news. I’m not going to lie though. It really caught me off guard, and it took several days for me to really come to terms with the fact that we’re having a baby! It’s not that I wasn’t excited, but with everything that happened earlier this year, finding out I was pregnant gave me so many emotions. I worried and worried wondering if everything was okay… if we should even be having a baby because we’re not exactly sure if Jacob is 100% heart healthy (which we’ll be getting that checked out soon I hope).
I called and made an appointment, and they said my appointment was 5 weeks away. 5 weeks! Not exactly ideal for someone that’s incredibly worried and scared about being pregnant for the first time. I questioned whether or not I should keep the doctor I chose or if I should call someone else that could see me much earlier. Eventually, I decided I would just wait. So for 5 weeks, I worried about everything: Am I eating the right things every day? Should I be exercising this much? Are these the right prenatal vitamins? etc. It was stressful, and I know stress probably isn’t the best thing, so I just tried to get through each day and do the best research I could while I waited for my appointment.
After 5 weeks, I finally made it to my first appointment. I was terrified and nervous and didn’t really know what to expect. My doctor was really great, and I’m so glad I chose to stick with him. He’s patient, calm and doesn’t seem to mind answering all of my questions. I really, really like him, and the staff is really friendly and helpful, which is such a nice plus! He definitely put me at ease after about 10 minutes into the appointment when he said everything looks great with the baby. Finally, I had good news and could really start being excited about our little one. Plus, I was 12 weeks, so we could finally start telling friends and family.
How we shared the news:
I wish I could say that I did something totally fun and exciting for our parents, but I didn’t. Since it was a surprise to us, it was definitely a surprise to them as well! 😀 Our parents are very excited though! My mom talks about the baby all the time, and since I’m an only child, I know that little one is going to be so spoiled… in a good way of course! 😉
We waited to share the news with the rest of our family and friends until we had our doctor’s appointment at 12 weeks. It was hard waiting so long, but I just wanted to make sure everything was okay before we told everyone our amazing news.
Something serious happened before we could share our joy: When we had our first doctor’s appointment, I told my doctor about a “hard” spot in my left breast that I’ve known about for a really long time (too long to be honest). He said he didn’t really feel concerned about it, but he ordered an ultrasound. Friday (October 27th) was by far the scariest day of my life. Going to have an ultrasound to see if you have breast cancer is a feeling I could never really describe. I was 100% terrified and every single scenario popped in my head. I’m so thankful my mom was with me because I lost it before I even made it out of the radiology department after the ultrasound.
I only told 4 people about the test because I hoped it would just be a false alarm (not cancer) and nothing to worry about. Waiting the entire weekend for my results was absolutely dreadful. I was an emotional wreck, especially on Sunday, but I hid it pretty well from Jacob apparently. If I ever have another exam like this, I will make sure it isn’t on a Friday… although I didn’t really have a choice this time. I had to wait over 72 hours for the results, and I was incredibly worried, scared and nervous. I finally got a call from the doctor’s office on Monday afternoon and thankfully everything looks normal! I’ve never been so relieved! Once I found out it wasn’t cancer, we decided to share our baby announcement on Facebook, so the rest of our friends and family would find out.
My whole point of sharing all of this is: Don’t be like me and wait years to get tested if you feel a lump, “hard” spot or if something just feels different than before. I know I should not have ever waited nearly as long as I did, and luckily, it’s nothing, but you never know. If it’s caught early, it can really make a huge difference, so please take my advice and get whatever it is checked out as soon as possible. I’ve learned my lesson for the future and know a lot of this extra stress and worry could have been avoided had I just been checked out earlier.
Back to happy baby news…
Gender: We don’t know yet! I believe we should find out in about a month, so I can’t wait for that appointment! We definitely want to know. I really don’t know how others don’t find out when they can. I couldn’t do it… at least not with my first one because I just gotta know! 😀
Baby Names: We’ve been talking about names for a while now. The girl’s name is set, but the boy’s name is still being determined. Once we find out what we’re having, I’ll be sure to announce the name!
How I’ve been feeling: The first trimester was not too bad, but I am glad to officially be in the second trimester now. Woohoo! I had bouts of morning sickness here and there, but it wasn’t awful. I feel like I was sicker before I knew I was pregnant than after I found out. Nausea is no fun, but luckily, I haven’t been sick every day, so I am really thankful for that. I have had some headaches, and I’ve had a bit of a hard time eating sometimes, but hopefully that’ll get better now that the second trimester is here.
I definitely have not been able to eat large meals at all, so it’s just been a little food here and there when I can eat. Some days I can only drink a smoothie or milkshake as a meal, especially at dinner. Dinner seems to be the hardest meal for me, but I’m really hoping that changes soon or it’s going to be quite a long pregnancy. It seems like sometimes I can only stomach “dry” food for dinner or something liquid, which is difficult to do every night. I’ve also noticed that food I loved before I was pregnant isn’t really stuff I love now. Everything tastes different and “not good.” Every time I eat or drink something, it leaves a taste in my mouth, so I’ve been brushing my teeth like crazy lately.
Cravings: To be honest, I really haven’t been craving many things although I have noticed I’ve been enjoying candy (sour stuff not chocolate) quite a bit. Terrible I know, but sometimes you just gotta cave and eat it. Other things I’ve craved in the past have been real food like roast, spaghetti and fish… which is pretty odd (I think) but totally normal foods. I’ve been trying to watch the junk food I eat and not go too overboard. Since I’ve had a hard time eating some days, it’s been easy to not eat too much.
What I can’t stand lately: Smells! Oh my goodness. I’ve always had a sensitive nose, but it seems like a lot of smells bother me. Just any food that smells seems to really get to me and flowers sometimes, too. I’m really hoping this part gets better with time especially because I love having fresh flowers in my home.
I’m looking forward to: Everything! Finding out the gender, planning the nursery (you know I love to decorate), shopping for our little bundle of joy, talking about the future with our little one, etc. I’m really excited to see where life takes our little family in these next few years. I know everything is going to be so different in about 6-7 months!
We have a couple of appointments coming up soon, so I’m sure we’ll have some more details to share. Oh and I do have a little bit of a bump, but I don’t think you can really tell yet just by looking at me. I’m sure it’ll pop out more very soon.